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I watch your little mind tremble
With possibility

As I teach you the names of the planets
I imagine your tiny form firmly footed
On some local bodied terra firma
Or floating among alien jellyfish
In the atmosphere of a gas giant

Or weaving through the Ort cloud
Destination unknown
Spinning a Fibonacci spiral out there
The thread between you and I unbreakable
Our ancestral memories stippled somewhere
Across the bridge of our being

No matter how far out you go
I will be with you
And you with I
Encoded by the light within
Forever

2020sm

Half cigarettes pirouetting around the toilet bowl
My dreams drip with the slick seepage of time
I burrow deeper into the bed

2020sm

all these thoughts in a rush
thinking themselves into existence

they condense in to a field
permeating the igneous matter of my animal soul,
infusing it with power, certainty, rhythm,
the triad opens the mind like a portal

in the dream i stand outside of space
and the collective light of the universe is upon me,
bright and hot the engine burns,
a single structure of all the energy that has ever been
pulsing through this human heart

i evaporate to a wakeful state,
back within the confinement of being,
my eyes open and reality slips through,
photons penetrate the vitreous body
and i close them, trapping the light,
converting to impulse,
the little universe within glows softly

2020sm

where are we here, adrift with the rhythm
racing in the stream like neutrinos
destined for elsewhere collisions
in some other now

the creeks and tributaries meet at the river,
becoming one body from many,
rolling and rolling over the silt and stones

bending and winding on and on fluid and swift
then swallowed by the source, open, boundless,
the ocean awake to the earth and sky

the constant transition, light enough to rise as vapor before the return,
the gravity drain too great to slip,
at last recycled back in to the stream
at last adrift again

2020sm

Unable to derive an appetite I
Stand in the kitchen
Drinking wine from the bottle
Hoping to summon some meaning
From the night

It is nebulous,
A spiral sliding deeper
In to the beyond,
Chasing the sun in its recession,
The long dark,
Falling forever
With the rotation of time

Consumed by the wave
There is only the medium
Carrying me here and there

The ice maker chimes in,
Reminding me of my impermanence,
And of my presence here,
Now, etc.

2020sm

Humans slip away,
As all matter surely does
Yet who can say the rocks do not weep for the dirt?
Every moment is built upon loss,
Energy dissipated back into the universe
To lubricate all that is ahead,
Keep everything moving,
This machine of life
hisses and writhes

Free, dispatched back to the outer realm
No one ever truly disappears,
Only phases of anti-matter
Rolling over like waves
In the deep wells of time
While we become invisible to one another

There is a fundamental truth in loss:
It is a transfer event
Not just the end of some tangible host
Loss is an agent of truth
Keeping the cold parameters of existence in check
By the soft breath of life’s exhaust

2019sm

A warm hum
Permeates the solid core of this home
Like a siren from elsewhere
Along and beyond the loop and the disc
It calls to me
from the wet dark unknown
Asking how to be
How to live
But I do not know
I too am a stranger here
Unwinding
In the definition
Of self

2019sm

I choose to forget
All that made you real,
The space I leased to you in this brief burning existence
I revoke

The momentary lapse of judgment leaves a mark,
An impression of bad times
That will fade,
Slowly,
Until you are gone with it

Spinning in crisis mode,
Your default state is chaos,
The forever victim,
Outcast among outcasts
In the aftermath of some greater tragedy

You are the sum total of your traumas
Unable to grow beyond them
A stunted flower bent over
In pursuit of its shadow

I leave the darkness to you

2019sm