• I watch your little mind tremble
    With possibility

    As I teach you the names of the planets
    I imagine your tiny form firmly footed
    On some local bodied terra firma
    Or floating among alien jellyfish
    In the atmosphere of a gas giant

    Or weaving through the Ort cloud
    Destination unknown
    Spinning a Fibonacci spiral out there
    The thread between you and I unbreakable
    Our ancestral memories stippled somewhere
    Across the bridge of our being

    No matter how far out you go
    I will be with you
    And you with I
    Encoded by the light within
    Forever

    2020sm

  • Breaking through
    Embryonic arms escape outward
    Upward to the firmament
    Wavering nakedly in the noise
    Hold on
    Release

    2020sm

  • In the stellar domain of your eyes
    I am warm with light

    Your freckles cluster in to constellations
    For my hands to trace softly
    Repeatedly
    Committing your form to memory

    Orbiting one another
    Pulsars of adoration
    Colliding
    I pull you closer still
    Consumed effortlessly
    By your cosmic heart

    2020sm

  • Half cigarettes pirouetting around the toilet bowl
    My dreams drip with the slick seepage of time
    I burrow deeper into the bed

    2020sm

  • all these thoughts in a rush
    thinking themselves into existence

    they condense in to a field
    permeating the igneous matter of my animal soul,
    infusing it with power, certainty, rhythm,
    the triad opens the mind like a portal

    in the dream i stand outside of space
    and the collective light of the universe is upon me,
    bright and hot the engine burns,
    a single structure of all the energy that has ever been
    pulsing through this human heart

    i evaporate to a wakeful state,
    back within the confinement of being,
    my eyes open and reality slips through,
    photons penetrate the vitreous body
    and i close them, trapping the light,
    converting to impulse,
    the little universe within glows softly

    2020sm

  • where are we here, adrift with the rhythm
    racing in the stream like neutrinos
    destined for elsewhere collisions
    in some other now

    the creeks and tributaries meet at the river,
    becoming one body from many,
    rolling and rolling over the silt and stones

    bending and winding on and on fluid and swift
    then swallowed by the source, open, boundless,
    the ocean awake to the earth and sky

    the constant transition, light enough to rise as vapor before the return,
    the gravity drain too great to slip,
    at last recycled back in to the stream
    at last adrift again

    2020sm

  • Unable to derive an appetite I
    Stand in the kitchen
    Drinking wine from the bottle
    Hoping to summon some meaning
    From the night

    It is nebulous,
    A spiral sliding deeper
    In to the beyond,
    Chasing the sun in its recession,
    The long dark,
    Falling forever
    With the rotation of time

    Consumed by the wave
    There is only the medium
    Carrying me here and there

    The ice maker chimes in,
    Reminding me of my impermanence,
    And of my presence here,
    Now, etc.

    2020sm

  • Humans slip away,
    As all matter surely does
    Yet who can say the rocks do not weep for the dirt?
    Every moment is built upon loss,
    Energy dissipated back into the universe
    To lubricate all that is ahead,
    Keep everything moving,
    This machine of life
    hisses and writhes

    Free, dispatched back to the outer realm
    No one ever truly disappears,
    Only phases of anti-matter
    Rolling over like waves
    In the deep wells of time
    While we become invisible to one another

    There is a fundamental truth in loss:
    It is a transfer event
    Not just the end of some tangible host
    Loss is an agent of truth
    Keeping the cold parameters of existence in check
    By the soft breath of life’s exhaust

    2019sm

  • A warm hum
    Permeates the solid core of this home
    Like a siren from elsewhere
    Along and beyond the loop and the disc
    It calls to me
    from the wet dark unknown
    Asking how to be
    How to live
    But I do not know
    I too am a stranger here
    Unwinding
    In the definition
    Of self

    2019sm

  • I choose to forget
    All that made you real,
    The space I leased to you in this brief burning existence
    I revoke

    The momentary lapse of judgment leaves a mark,
    An impression of bad times
    That will fade,
    Slowly,
    Until you are gone with it

    Spinning in crisis mode,
    Your default state is chaos,
    The forever victim,
    Outcast among outcasts
    In the aftermath of some greater tragedy

    You are the sum total of your traumas
    Unable to grow beyond them
    A stunted flower bent over
    In pursuit of its shadow

    I leave the darkness to you

    2019sm